Since the moment I started my business I’ve realized that most of the biggest blocks I’ve faced, like scalating my income and growing my audience, have more to do with how I feel on the inside than with what I do on the outside.

Increasing the money I earn became difficult every time I was feeling not good enough. Whenever I felt that what I did was too bad to be shared, or needed to decrease my prices because otherwise people would “ask for refunds”, my products wouldn’t sell or I would receive bad reviews.

If the issue was growing my audience, that exactly matched the moments where I felt like I was not a good leader, that no one would like to learn from me, or when I felt like I didn’t want the responsibility to have an audience.

There have been more blocks and things to heal throughout my experience having a digital passive income business. And I know that those things won’t go away forever unless I do the healing work first.

Sounds easy, but as soon as you step into the healing process, you realize that every other task in your business (creating content, writing articles, answering questions, etc) is way more doable. It’s because they have a structure. You can easily learn how to send an email, you can totally get how to use wordpress or how to record a podcast. With time, those things become like a habit. 

Whereas the mindset part doesn’t have a manual. It’s different for everyone and it doesn’t include instructions attached when you experience difficulties. If you feel like you don’t deserve money, and you have money, you may unconsciously sabotage yourself to lose that money. If you don’t have the money, you start feeling that it will be your reality forever, so instead of attracting it to you, you make it go farther away. 

If you don’t feel like a leader, no matter how many books about leadership you read or how many times you push yourself to your limits to act as a leader, inside there would be a flame that can disappear at any moment, because you don’t truly feel good enough.

Being a business owner goes way beyond the typical archetype of a girlboss all dressed up in pink elegant suits, drinking coffee from a mug and looking like having it all together.

In fact, it feels like living as a person trying to choose between being the boss setting the rules and the employee who follows those rules. Especially if you don’t have a team and you’re a solopreneur, the wide variety of hats you wear sometimes prevent you from getting in touch with your feelings.

Having been all my life worried about my feelings and reflecting every time I could, hasn’t prevented me from hitting rock bottom. I had always been in touch with my mindset and spirituality, but once I became a business owner, there was a part of myself who thought “now I need to focus on hard work, and let feelings aside”.

But as bad as it may sound to others, when being a female entrepreneur feelings cannot be put aside. We women are very emotional beings, and most of us manage our entire lives taking into account how we feel. So why should we run our businesses or side-hustles with a cold heart? Why should we ignore the desires our hearts scream in order to make more profit and look more serious or professional?

So I did a new journey to get in touch with my feelings and with my protective patterns, in order to release the pain and the stress I was experiencing in relation to some areas of my life.

I achieved this by doing the 30-day program by Michelle Rohr and Aimee Johannan, Release and Reclaim.